Musings of an Awakening Spirit

Stories, poetry & general musings of Rebecca Haywood, a modern-day Shaman with a penchant for bringing the divine into the human experience.
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Deeper Waters

Deeper Waters
The storms of life roll through.  Some are natural, others unimaginable.  We face them as individuals, as communities and as a world.  They bring fear, the courage born from it, and the reminder of what is truly important as we watch our landscape change forever. In the midst of a storm, our animal self is there reacting in the name of survival.  The adrenaline kicks in to sharpen our mind and fuels an...
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Receptivity: A Vessel Surrendered

Receptivity: A Vessel Surrendered
Ralph Waldo Emerson wrote that receptivity brings us into an “original relation to the universe”; I can't think of a better place to stand as a Healer or as a human. For receptivity is one of our greatest gifts, and its key lies in our nature — in what is inherent to us without the paved streets of the mind.  What is receptivity, but an opening through which we receive. Yet it is...
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A Tale of Two Minds

A Tale of Two Minds
This is the tale of two minds, The Domesticated Mind and The Soul Mind, and how, through the Toltec practice of Dreaming, they came into one. So what the heck is the Domesticated Mind, the Soul Mind or this thing called Dreaming? Well, as you may know, I had the privilege of a direct apprenticeship with don Miguel Ruiz, author of the Four Agreements, and his mother, Madre Sarita, renowned Toltec Curandera. So...
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Leap of Faith

Leap of Faith
So often we focus on what we DON’T want and we end up aiming right for it.  Why?  Well, our attention is the channel that directs our intent and so wherever we focus, there we are.   I have said before that life is a series of awakenings, and that each of those awakenings is a stepping stone forming our path to self-realization.  Sometimes the stones are set further apart and require a...
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Call to Action

Call to Action
One important step in manifesting our desire is a simple one — to listen.  Once we have lit our candles and said our prayers, literally or figuratively, we must listen for Life’s answer.  For the answer will inevitably come with a call to action.  In my last blog post, ‘Crying Prayers’, I spoke to ‘becoming the invitation’ by surrendering to the asking and that, no matter our faith or our desperation, Life is...
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Crying Prayers

Crying Prayers
I used to think that in order for my prayers to be effective, they required absolute faith.  I had spent years overcoming the voices of doubt and mastering the embodiment of faith that I witnessed flowing so effortlessly from my teacher, Mother Sarita.  When she prayed, her words were like a pointed arrow, piercing its target without even a hesitation of doubt.  I mimicked her energy until I too found its force moving...
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The Day the Sun Stood Still

The Day the Sun Stood Still
Tomorrow the December Solstice begins.  Those in the southern hemisphere celebrate a summer sun at its peak while us northerners greet the shortest and darkest day of winter.  Wherever you stand on this day and whichever season you savor, it is a time for stillness and redirection - a perfect preparation for the New Year. A Solstice occurs twice a year and marks an apex of proximity and a shift in the sun’s...
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The Death of Prince Charming

The Death of Prince Charming
In our society, the search for love often trumps the search for God, but both are certainly worthy quests and, when done ‘right’, will bring you to the same place - self-awareness, self-responsibility and true empowerment. I struggled for years in my relationships with men and with God.  Though I was raised to be an independent and self-sufficient woman, I secretly sought completion.  I pushed and I pulled on their love.  The part...
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What is True Now?

What is True Now?
What is all this talk of ‘living in the now' and why is it a key to an authentic and joyful life? Well, it goes beyond a simple spiritual slogan.  The fact is, the only place from which we can affect change is in the present moment — not the past and not the future, for they don’t exist.  Sure we project ourselves there constantly, replaying regrets and hoping for a better future,...
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The Keys to Happiness

The Keys to Happiness
Like crickets in the night, Spirit is all around us and is in constant communication with us.  Its song guides us through the darkness and into our ‘field of dreams’, orchestrating its aria in response to our deepest desires; and when we follow its call, we live in grace with the movement of the moment and in alignment with our life’s purpose.  The how of it rests within our heart.  Mother Sarita taught...
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Communion-ication ~ Part II

Communion-ication ~ Part II
Part of this direct communication relies on the messenger’s communion with themselves and with the intent of their words. In learning the art of ‘channeling’ with Mother Sarita, I experienced my own words in a way I never thought possible.  After raising our vibration through meditation and prayer, we would sit in silence together until she felt the presence of what she called my ‘Spirit Guide’.   At this point, whether I was...
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Communion-ication

Communion-ication
Let’s put the communion back into communication. I began translating for Mother Sarita and her clients after a mere two weeks of working with her and with only a handful of Spanish vocabulary.  She told me I could and so I did.  I put all of my attention into her, our eyes locked in a steady gaze, and the words began to flow out of my mouth.  Though I could hear her, I...
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Fire Cleansing ~ Part II

Fire Cleansing ~ Part II
The heart of this ancient ritual comes to life when we bestow our faith and awareness upon its inherent healing power. Like a magnifying glass, faith and awareness intensify and focus the energy thus producing profound and sustained healing, but how do we wield such a tool - as healers and as heal-ees? It is difficult to describe faith or how it is conjured, for it is like breathing - it just is. ...
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Can I Get a Witness?

Can I Get a Witness?
The spiritual path teaches us to love unconditionally, but what about BEING loved unconditionally?  Though we inherently receive the love we give, there is a distinct power in being witnessed by the eyes of love.  In the loving reflection of another, we have an opportunity to dissolve self-judgement and thus to love ourselves more deeply.   We may practice self-love and even experience genuine happiness, but often there is at least a piece...
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Healing Our Wounded Inheritance

Healing Our Wounded Inheritance
The blankets of the sweat lodge had begun to move with the cool breeze of the desert night, bringing my awareness back to my body.  I lay there in the darkness alone; the ground wet with the steam of sage and copal.  I was in the primordial mud; in the stillness of the beginning of it all.   The Temazcal, once filled with song and prayer, had carried me to a deep place...
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Fire Cleansing: The Simple Science of an Ancient Art

Fire Cleansing: The Simple Science of an Ancient Art
Of all the tools Mother Sarita endowed to me, Fire Cleansings are my absolute favorite.  They reach into the deepest layers of self, from the physical to the spiritual, and draw out lifetimes of negativity.  In Sarita's mythology, a Limpia de Lumbre was her medicine of choice to address what she called 'magico negro', or 'black magic'.  When she saw that one's illness was 'unnatural', meaning that there had been a 'dano' or...
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Almost Free

Almost Free
If you have ever been to Teotihuacan, Mexico, you are well acquainted with the many vendors that call the ancient city of pyramids their office.  Some more dedicated than others, brave the hot sun as they circle the dusty plazas in a peacock-like display of their goods.  Others linger like sleepy dogs in the shade, springing to life at the approach of an unsuspecting tourist.  Whatever the species of vendor, they all share...
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The State of Union

The State of Union
Each year, the President delivers his State of the Union address – a report on the condition of the nation and a synopsis of his agenda.  As I watched this year, I began to ponder our own inner state of union.  Though the talk of body, mind and spirit saturates spiritual dialogue, we often overlook this union and hold the aspects of ourselves as separate.  We leave them to attempt communion with the...
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How Big Are You?

How Big Are You?
In an age where many strive to starve themselves into a smaller jean size, we often underestimate the benefit of our grandness.  The grandness I speak of is not one of physicality, but rather the span of our reach.  Like a stone being tossed into a glassy lake, we each have a radius of impact upon the world and that impact continues beyond the visible ripples at the water’s edge. I recently learned...
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Politics of the Mind - Part I

Politics of the Mind - Part I
Though I once felt that politics and spirituality went together like oil and water, I now see that the political arena offers the spiritual seekers among us a great mirror for the way in which we use our mind against the truth of our free nature.   The mere structure of our ‘democratic’ process, organized into executive, legislative, and judicial branches, reflects the references in our minds through which we process any decision,...
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